Tonight, I found myself awake at 2:30 am. The previous night had Charlie and I doing everything we could think of to get our little one to sleep, but he just wasn't having it. Finally around 4am, he dozed off. I ended up having a severe allergy attack over night [probably brought on from wearing next to nothing while the pollen danced around my nasal passages during our late night drive] and felt like poo from lack of sleep and allergy symptoms, so I ended up sleeping in until 11am and then dozing off in random spots around the house until 3pm. So of course I'm still awake. I slept most of the day away. After getting Austin back to sleep for the second time, I decided to lay on the couch so as not to disturb him anymore.
Wouldn't you know it? The INSANITY infomercial comes on. Talk about feeling guilty. I'm watching these people on the screen and feeling bad because instead of doing the workout everyday for 60 days straight like I'm supposed to, I'm doing each workout with 3-4days in between. Thus delaying my 'after' photo and results for probably 3 months or so. I started to remember how excited I was about getting the dvds in the first place and decided right then and there that I wasn't going to just go to sleep...I was gonna get INSANE! I laced up my shoes and put on my comfy bra and got to work! Of course, I had to break twice to go nurse the babe back to slumberland, but once he was golden..I took off on the insane train!
It's so easy to have excuses as to why we don't do things. I don't want to be THAT girl. You know the one. Making excuses every time I fail to follow through. And I feel guilty every day that I don't have a blog update about exercise. I have only a few readers, but I feel as if I have to live up to the standards I set for myself. How can anyone believe me if I don't have follow through? How can I believe myself, for that matter? I want to be more committed to getting where I want to be. I want to feel the burn in my muscles and joints and know that I'm doing something amazing for myself. It's so easy to sit back and eat a bag of chips and decide that I've had a rough day and therefore I will not have the energy to workout. Even if it's just a portion of the dvd, I want to get up and do it everyday...no matter what time of day it is!