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coloring with my almost-three year old.

>> watching: i haven't really sat down and watched tv in awhile. i have little spurts every now and then, but nothing that i'm like SUPER glued to. i want to get into Downton Abbey because EVERYONE is in love with it, but i don't want to start and then have to pause because my schedule is so hectic. i DID stay up until 6am this morning watching movies last night. i watched The Switch and No Strings Attached..two really good movies. check 'em out. and give me some recommendations on things to check out!

>> thinking about: relationships. men and women. why we are the way we are and why we constantly feel this need to fight the innate truths about ourselves. excuse me while i get all abstract and stuff...
we, as humans, want to be loved. we want to be cherished and we want to feel important. don't believe me? the whole reason people are loyal to anything {brand, group, status, a store, etc.} is because they make you feel like you matter. even the crummiest of people, the coldest of hearts, the meanest of the mean...they want to feel that way too. so why is it that when someone IS treating you well, that some of us start to ruin it all? why do we feel the need to play games, torture hearts, pull on heartstrings, etc? why can't we just love and be loved? this world would be so much easier if we'd never been hurt. if deep inside us there wasn't this need to hurt other people. people AREN'T inherently good. we are caught in the middle of a war of love and hate. and we're attacked every day with reasons to hate others. why can't we just love? when will the games stop and the love just flow?

>> reading: short of blogs, fb posts, and the occasional magazine article...i'm not reading A THING. and i feel weird about it. i want to delve into some good reading. i'm contemplating looking into more series. i keep seeing movies that came from books and i want to read those books before seeing the movie. any suggestions?

>> celebrating: my son will be three in two weeks. i can't even handle it, but i'm celebrating who this little baby has turned into. he's seriously grown so much in the last few years and i'm so excited to see who he becomes in the future.

>> making me happy: my kids. really...they're kind of the one constant right now. i'm not feeling as dark and depressed as before, but i am consistently battling the enemy on many different fronts and it's tough at times. even when they're being really toddler-esque {translation: horrid}, they constantly do things to make me happy and make me a better person. i love those babies.

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{from my bday dinner on sunday}

>> what i'm listening to : admittedly, i just discovered Andy Grammer. i've heard his songs before, but didn't know who it was. aaaaaand i'm obsessed. and jamie cullum and jason mraz are ALWAYS on heavy rotation over here. aaand anything country too. lol  i'm drawing inspiration for my song-writing/recording ventures!

>> what i'm watching: LIE TO ME!!!!!! on netflix! SUCH a great series. i'm obsessed.

>> what i'm thinking about:  the future. it's constantly on my mind. this is the first time i'm not 100% sure about my next step in life and it feels so foreign to me. but i'm rolling with it.

>> what i'm loving: green smoothies, regular exercise, my clean apartment, loud music and impromptu dance parties, shooting weddings, my new tattoo and having orange toe nails.

>>  what i'm anticipating: holding my babies again. gosh i miss them. so so much.

>> what i'm feeling thankful for: for having the incredible network i have around me. friends, family, acquaintances...it feels good to be surrounded by positive people who are moving towards something amazing....whatever it is. and i'm just so glad to know that there's no drama in my inner circle. i'm glad that 18 year old kiranda has learned SOMETHING in the last 7 years. lol

>> what i'm working on: music. photography. blogging. music. photography. blogging. and more music and photography and blogging.

>> what i'm eating lots of : tuna tuna TUUNNNNAAAAA! zomg it's so good. oh and green smoothies..starting as of two days ago.

>> what i'm wishing for: for a little glimpse of what is to come and for peace to wash over me when i'm feeling uncertain.

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currently...

what i'm listening to >> COUNTRY MUSIC LIKE WHOA. Current favorites? Luke Bryan, Dierks Bentley, and Rascal Flatts. 

what i'm watching >> we just got internet so our netflix is back up and running. Lie to Me is a current fave, but i'm wicked excited for my DIRECTV installation on wednesday! :D

thinking about >>  a lot of things. i know that's incredibly vague, but my life is a big jumble of craziness. and i'm not entirely sure how to process it all. at any one time, i'm juggling three things. and those aren't just three tiny things...three MAJOR things. it can be pretty overwhelming at times.

loving >> the crazy amount of confidence that is building up within me. despite the fact that i've gained five pounds {the last two weeks have been HEC.TIC schedule-wise so i've missed my workouts}...i still feel gorgeous. and that makes my confidence sky-rocket.

anticipating >> the break in the clouds.....i can feel it coming.

feeling thankful for >>  the ability to dance in the storm. and i place that whole-heartedly in the hands of my Creator. it's because of Him that i'm still here.

working on >> photo and blog editing. trying to streamline my process so that i don't get overwhelmed trying to continue my business and my personal life at the same time. also? unpacking this dern house. it's just taking too long!

i'm also still writing for my album. i don't think i've put a lot of that info up here on le blog, but i'm recording an album (how 'bout that?) all originals and i'm really excited about it. i'll post more later. :D

eating lots of >>  salmon and tuna in a pouch. have you seen those? they're pretty much amazing. just toss one in your purse, pull on the top and NOMNOMNOM. no can opener needed! the albacore is just perfection. and the smoked salmon? holy get in my face hole! ------>go get some.

wishing >>  i could snap my fingers and make everything the way i want it to be. :D

inspired by Danielle over at Sometimes Sweet. 

what are YOU currently all about?

the current state of things.

currently...

what i'm listening to >>  contemporary christian radio on pandora! seriously, this station gets me through the day. i blast it in my headphones on the way to work, i blast it on my ipad while i'm setting up the caffe and it's softly playing throughout the day. i feel that God speaks to me through music. He's always done that. and when i can listen to worship music that is uplifting, it's really hard to stay upset or down about anything. and right now, that's what i need!

what i'm eating >>  just NOM-ed the heck out of a chipotle burrito bowl. i'm addicted to these!

what i'm watching >>  i've been seriously addicted to the real housewives on bravo and american dad on netflix lately. i'm usually watching one of those things when i'm off work. lol

thinking about >> a LOT of things. how excited i am to see my kids next week and the week after. how it's only a month until i have them back in my life. how the dynamic between me and charlie is going to change and how that will affect things. how i'm going to juggle working full time with the kids again. 

i'm also seriously contemplating doing a christian music album. it's been on my heart for awhile, but i keep pushing it to the back of my mind. but God won't relent. lol so i've started compiling a list of songs i want to cover and i've even played with the idea of writing a few originals. i haven't declared it publicly...except just now...and i'm hoping to find some great musicians to work with in the near future.

loving >> christian contemporary on pandora, chipotle burrito bowls, my job, the cute skirt i just bought from ROSS and the shoes i got from there and H&M today, zipcar, the overwhelming, awe-inspiring, complete and all consuming love of Christ.

anticipating >> being with my babies again...

feeling thankful for >> the trials that will become my testimony. i know God is preparing something for me and sometimes i get really upset and depressed about my current situation, but i know it's going to make sense later. just trusting and walking by faith. and i'm so thankful to know the Lord and know that He has it all under control. i'm also really thankful for my job and my boss. she's a christian as well and we have these amazing, thought-provoking conversations at work all the time and i know God placed us together for a reason!

many thanks to holly over at Holly Days blog for the idea. and Danielle from Sometimes Sweet for the original idea...lol love you ladies! :