You ladies rock. I can't say it any other way. I know I said that I didn't want any "advice" or any "opinions", but everything that I've gotten from the last post makes me feel warm and fuzzy and less "funky".
Going along with my month long truth session, I realize that the problem is completely wrapped up in the fact that C and I aren't getting along. Don't get me wrong, I love the kid to death and we have some really great times. But I feel a dark cloud looming overhead when 3 o'clock comes around. He's coming home from work and I just "know" that something is going to go wrong.
I'm not going to bore anyone with details. But it's just been a trying time for me and I don't know exactly how to deal with it. I'm the queen of being "on". Seeing us in public or on the interwebz, you'd never know there was a problem. I can fake it with the best of them. I accentuate the positive, if you will and put the negative on the backburner until I'm safe inside my house where no one can see me in my zombie-like mode.
I'm not "allowed" to post on facebook or my blog or talk to my friends because this is "private". But I've never been much of a "private" person. I don't want to talk to people about it because while we've made up and moved on, they might still be stewing about it. So I'm kind of just stuck.
*sigh* so there. that's the gist of it all. maketh any sense?