starting over...

hi. my name is kiranda.

and i'm filing for separation from my husband.

i don't think marriage sucks and i'm not against falling in love {at some point} but MY marriage sucked. not because it was hard. not because it wasn't what i thought it would be. not because i didn't work hard at every turn to make it last. but because i was the ONLY one who was trying to make it work. there's only so many lies, infidelity, selfishness, emotional abuse and abandonment that one person can deal with. 

i can say with absolute certainty that i did everything i knew to do to make my marriage last. i did things i would have never done in a million years in an effort to make it work. i made myself half of a person in order to please him and it wasn't good enough. to this day, nothing has ever been good enough.

i'm not perfect. i've made mistakes within this union. and i'm not going to try and be 'holier than thou' and point out the splinter in his eye while ignoring the plank in my own. i don't think he is a horrible person, i just don't think i could be with him any longer. is he still my friend? of course. do we have some awesome kiddos that i'm excited to co-parent with him? YES and YES. but romantically- i know i could never be truly happy. 

i think we've moved past the point of moving forward. so i'm moving on.

so here's to being happy.

cause Lord knows it's been awhile.