So Monday has come and gone...
I woke up early this morning and got ready for the day. My friend Janie came over and [after going back and forth on "should i wake him up? should i let him sleep?"] I finally woke Austin up and we went to Madigan for my blood test.
I bribed the guy to put a rush on my blood work and since I'm a Dallas Cowboys fan, he did.
I called four hours early.
And I'm not pregnant.
To be honest, last night I had a mini freak out while taking a bath with Austin. How am I gonna do this? I feel like crap right now and I can't put Austin down. How am I gonna juggle all of this while dealing with the pregnancy? What if I dry up? What if I run myself down to the ground and end up on bed rest? How can we honestly afford another baby? My marriage isn't as great as it should be, would adding another baby be the BEST thing right now? What about Austin? Does he even WANT a sibling? Would we be taking away from him if we have another one?
I'm a tad relieved that I'm not baking another one. True, there could be some mixup because Madigan has been known [on several occasions] to mess up my lab work. But as of now...I am not with child and that's okay. My birthday is on Thursday so I can drink and get wild and crazy. And we're having a party on Friday so I can get even MORE wasted. lol kidding. [well, sorta]
I don't know if we'll use birth control. We might just try keeping it in God's hands and tempting the fates. [Does that phrase even make sense? lol]
Drinks on me!! Let's get naked wasted. lol