i feel absolutely sick to my stomach.

my sister just called me to say that my grandmother had a stroke and is being rushed to the hospital. i'm losing my mind over here. i can't lose my grandmother. i just can't. she's everything. i need her. my family needs her. my kids need her.

i know that God has plans in works right now. i just pray with every fiber of my being that he keeps her here. she's not done living....i just know it.